25 random things about me

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. I have no idea what i want to be when i grow up STILL but i know i'll be good at it

2. I love chocolate ice cream i can't say no o don't think i have it in me.

3. I can cook my ass off.

4. I am sometimes afraid to try in fear of rejection.

5. Express is my favorite clothing store.

6. I collect coins

7. I've been through so much pain in my life i'm told it's easily seen in my eyes I remain positive though.

8. I don't think i could ever say no to raw smoked salmon.

9. I think i have abnormally big feet for a girl.

10. Any location next to water is paradise to me boat, pool, beach, bath lol

11. I believe in Karma and giving back.

12. I drink whiskey.

13. Too much fried food makes me sick.

14. I love to write songs, blogs, essays, poetry, even school work i find enjoyment

15. I am a qualified sharpshooter w a 8mm 12gauge m16 and m18.

16. I take sleep seriously

17. I take sex seriously

18. I take food seriously

19. Biggest turn-on a great smile

20. I love to learn I actually get passionate about learnig

21. I love kids as long as they're not mine i'm sure when i have them i love them too

22. I shake my head every day at the status of our generation.

23. I believe in the end we all want the same thing and we're all in this together 

24. I could spend hours talking to someone i care about

and 25 did i mention i love chocolate

"Perfect Imperfection"

Human qualities are not found in perfection the qualities are in the imperfections, the flaws the unique traits that make someone an individual and put them apart from a crowd. No one is perfect and searching for perfection is only going to lead to dissappointment if you can find someones flaws and imperfections as attractive as their best traits or at least understand the motivation behind their flaws and appreciate with an open mind then in your mind you've found your own form of perfection in a sense of perfect contentment it may not be permanent but more worth it than if you constantly attribute issues to imperfections. Someone can have the biggest flaw but have innumerable small qualities that make the differences daily or can have the sincerest emotion towards you with the greatest of intentions but that human imperfection causes so many to turn in disgust and its sad I see daily situations that could be de escalated with honest conversation and true appreciation but pride a human flaw is the biggest obstacle when humility should be at the forefront if your reading this take a breath before you pass judgement because afterwards you might be left at square 1 chasing impossible perfection when you had perfect imperfection and had no idea this is not relationship specific friends lovers family just think about it

Quick note of Poetry "Women Vs Girls"

Okay so i wanted to break down the difference for all the little girls.

Women will listen remember and remind. im talking dreams, work, school, money, important shit, not what u want from the store.

Women will let u know when u messing up not mess up wit u.

Women want to please u as bad as u want to please them.

Woman think about what could be on your mind before asking or telling you all about theirs.

A real woman will not let you do all the work maybe the hard shit but not all of it.

A woman doesnt need me she wants me a girl would be lost without me.

Women keep it real no time for games shes to busy on her g shit a girl plays games to find out how much u like her what ur about just bs.

A woman says i want this i got that, bring it or stay out the way.

A woman doesnt have time for girlish games. A woman is looking for the real thing a girl is looking for a quick fling.

Me im not looking for a dam thang but around me only women can hang

Enlightenment as Mass Deception

I read Theodore Adorno and Max Horheimer's 1944 The culture industry: Enlightenment as Mass Deception. He starts out talking about cities and their high tech building, old outlying gloomy slums, but maintain small hygienic apartments all these things meant to keep people subservient to forms modern day capitalism. I can agree with this because from what i have seen especially in D.c with gentrification reaching it's highest points in years pushing some people out and bringing in a higher class of people shoving them into cramped quarters in the middle of metropolitan cities. Forcing those residents to maintain the status quot feeding the consumer based industry.

 Industries are no longer hiding their monopoly on businesses prior to that they had been masquerading as art forms. "Private broadcasters are being denied freedoms and deemed amateur" Reading that is disheartening on so many levels but it is the product of the beast which we have created. Any semblance of individualism, spontaneity, and creativity is immediately engulfed and absorbed by power houses of talent scouts, agencies, and corporations that make their money by exploiting the unique, quirky, awkward, rebellious, or otherwise different from the populous in any intriguing way. Even corporations in a sense are dependent on industry broadcasters depend on electrical companies, motion picture and films are dependent on the banks which fund them or loan them the necessary dividends to produce another cyclic form of so-called art.

  People have lost their face and their voice as consumers. Consumers are now statistics. Statistics are now numbers and colors on a chart based on income, demographic, location and disposable income. People have become colored chart on the walls of advertising and marketing agencies. These numbers speak nothing of the product or its quality or even it's impact, the question is who is buying and how much are they paying for it? All the while the consumers, the people are made to think they are in control by giving them a choice. The thought process being "I have a choice so I must be in control". When in actuality the choice presented will inevitably feed the consumer machine further spinning it round and round which is exactly what the producers want.

  The cyclic motion of the machine can be seen in all aspects of American culture. Movies are repetitive to a science. Most viewers know how the film will end fifteen minutes after it has began, who will die, who the hero and the heroin or love interest may be. Consumers are spoon fed the same story over and over again they are bombarded with the latest effects, sexual innuendos the newest hottest songs and riddled with today's hottest celebrities leaving no room for the viewer to use their imagination to think outside the box to think beyond what is given. What's worse is they do not want you to have an imagination in order to be successful in the entertainment industry one can only survive by fitting in, as Adorno wrote "freedom is for the stupid to starve"..."not to conform is to be rendered powerless". Basically saying you do it this way and succeed or you do it your way and starve your creativity and individuality is of no relevance in this industry.

   What i found to be the most ironic about this essay was at no point did the author deem the consumer indignant or ignorant. The people know it's a machine, the consumer sees straight through advertising agencies promises of enjoyment. The masses understand they are being groomed to work, to maintain the cyclic evolving of the beast that is the industry, yet no real solution was given. It can't be due to lack of intelligence I personally think it's more of a feeding of our own addiction to the very thing we as consumers can see straight through. Again advertising triumphs and we the people, the masses and the consumers feel compelled to buy, buy, buy feed the need even though we know in our hearts we have no need for it all.

Extra Credit Blog Gabriel Byrne At The Edge An Afro Futurist Salon

  I listened to the radio show. Initially i was quite sure of who Gabriel Byrne was upon looking up his imdb i discovered i've seen him multiple times in movies such as "the usual suspects", "the man in the iron mask", a personal favorite, "ghost ship" "Cool World" with Brad Pitt another favorite, and  "Enemy of the state". The talk seemed  more focused on "the usual suspects" and his current work on HBO.  His work in the 90's was spoken of in terms of his working in more independent films during that time period. His ability to change roles so drastically was spoken on. I feel that versatility makes for a great thesbian. The topic turned to the objectification of celebrities, alot of celebrities are objectified when glorified on screen sometimes those foreign born are objectified even further or to a greater extent i think because of the curiosity and infatuation of something foreign or unknown.  People cannot claim to love celebrities they are not known personally. Objectification of celebrities is a form of projecting what one perceives of what is put forth through media. An assumption comes about an image created in one's mind. It's in essence loving an idea it's not real. All in all it was an entertaining show between 3 female speakers obvious fans of Gabriel Byrne. It was a somewhat persuasive conversation if one wasn't aware of Gabriel Byrne before hearing the talk show one would surely have curiosity peak by the end and make a sincere effort in getting their hands on one of his films. Gabriel Byrne has been making movies for 30 years .  Including theatre film and television.

Sterotypical America.

She's  too black for you, you're not white enough for that job, he's probably a terrorist, I bet he doesn't even speak english, they're terrible drivers, they're too ghetto over there. With every phrase what picture or demographic comes to mind? Stereotypes are rampant disillusions that have been recycled  and reused again and again. America has reached a new height in terms of racial equality but the stereotypes still stand. Comedians use stereotypes as a go to for garaunteed laughs which is ironic in itself we can laugh at stereotypes because we all recognize and know them but that in itself shows that stereotypes aren't going anywhere. Bet (black entertainment television) an entire channel dedicated to one race but owned by white people. All the while producing blacksploited sitcoms with all black casts creating and maintaining a black stereotype in most cases derogatory or portraying black characters to be violent less intelligent or of lower incomes. Is this a proper representation of healthy black entertainment? Why is there a channel allowed to be race specific? Isn't that in itself a form of racism? Bet has a huge influence on today's youth kids get their music their fashion their lingo their swag from such channels and usually a good role model isn't represented properly. The media has a huge influence on the stereotypes in America rather encourage equality and acceptance. The media seems to push for one race or genre or gender more than another to whatever benefit it may be at that convenient time. Yet if you walk down the street and talk to people they are nothing like the people you see on tv. The media has trained our mind to judge each other based on what we have seen on tv. Youth presents themselves based on what they see on tv an image they want to project that has already been projected on them. Celebrities especially comedic celebrities are the largest perpetrators perpetuating these stereotypes. The wayans brothers continually play off of racial stereotypes. Rappers maintain the stereotype of a lifestyle most do not live all in the interest of selling their music. Stop the stereotype in the end we all want the same thing to be happy to be successful and to be loved.